My Deconversion from Christianity

July 2015:

>mind presenting yourself to me

Sure, although it will be a long post deserving of a new thread. I’m now an atheist, or more precisely an apostate. I bounced between mainstream protestant denominations like Luthernism and Southern Baptist, but I also have Catholic relatives too.

Unlike most posters here, I had the cornerstones of my faith destroyed one by one by random chances over the years. I can’t even say there was a single thing that made me leave my faith more than any other. There could be too many to list, but I can try to chronologically list what shaped my views. They included….

Accepting evolution, accepting the rights of homosexuals, seeing the hypocrisy intolerance and self-righteousness of my family, watching my kindest and most Christian grandmother die alone and unloved with cancer (refutation of the rewards of unselfish love) and then the other intolerant Christian relatives swooped in to lay claim her inheritance. A trip to Japan (where people of a foreign belief system provided random kindness), a trip to Vietnam where I met friendly Atheists volunteering in Doctors without Borders who were courageously doing charity beyond what I was willing to do (better people than many Christians were going to hell.)

I also disliked going to church. All churches bored me, but especially the megachurches where a guy in a suit would smile and say the fakest things. I also thought my churches and their charities all tended to waste the tithe money. And I liked the humble and natural aesthetics of the Japanese garden shrines much better than the artificialness of Christian churches. I thought God’s house belonged in nature, and praying was more naturally done under the stars.

   

I also increasingly came to dislike the very religious fundamentalists who find signs of Armageddon and the occult in the newspaper. I thought they were irrational, and tended to be intolerant, xenophobic, and have unchristlike self-righteousness. Meanwhile I read frighteningly unloving passages in the bible, and couldn’t find a satisfactory explanation for some of God’s actions/genocides. Many parts of the OT (and NT) began to feel like fiction.

By this time I had many unspoken doubts, and my faith was holding on by a thread, even though I didn’t know it yet. I took 2 classes in Buddhism and Japanese religion. I already liked aspects of those religions, and wanted to see proof that my religion was more true than theirs, and possibly be able to convert those people. Instead, I didn’t find many arguments that couldn’t also be used against Christianity. And I liked Buddhism more, even though parts of it were boring.

I liked my professor (a white guy who had converted to Buddhism and studied in Japan), and paid close attention. What he taught about the history of Buddhism also demolished my remaining trust that Christianity was the true religion. The one that hit me the most was how later Buddhists would invent fake scriptures and then attribute the new scriptures to the disciples of Buddha. (I would come to realize that probably happened in the gospels of Judas or Peter.)

That night when I was at thinking about the lecture I had an epiphany where everything seemed to come together. It’s probably similar to what born again Christians have. I realized I would rather live an ephermal good life, and die beautifully than live forever, and it made more sense to me than to chase eternity.

I wouldn’t even have to change who I was if I left the religion, but instead would be much more free to become an individual, and could be whoever I wanted to be. I felt emancipated.

   

 

But there was also sadness, because I realized I would rather exist in the Buddhist cosmos than in the Christian one. Buddhism provides choices in your lives, second chances for those who are bound for hell, and a more colorful mythology. But I couldn’t become a real Buddhist knowing what I knew about its history.

I deconverted some years ago. Ever since then I’ve been agnostic, and as I continued to absorb information I eventually became a strong atheist. I’ve been an active poser on /atheism/ but we’re running out of things to discuss, which is why there’s been so many redundant thread about politics there recently. That’s my story.


  

2 thoughts on “My Deconversion from Christianity

  1. REPENT OF FALSE goddess WORSHIP

    THERE IS NO OTHER GOD EXCEPT THE MIGHTY GOD OF ELIJAH, MOSES AND DANIEL, THE MIGHTY GOD OF GLORY, THE CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND EARTH, THE MIGHTY ONE OF ISRAEL.

    THERE ARE SERIOUS DANGERS IN WORSHIPING IDOLS. THE WORD OF THE LORD IS CLEAR. FLEE IDOLATRY, REPENT OF FALSE goddess WORSHIP AND THE LORD WILL RESTORE YOU AND REVIVE YOU.

    Isaiah 40:21
    Do you [who worship idols] not know? Have you not heard? Has it not been told to you from the beginning? Have you not understood from the foundations of the earth [the omnipotence of God and the stupidity of bowing to idols]?

    Micah 5:14
    “I will root out your Asherim (symbols of the goddess Asherah) from among you And destroy your cities [which are the centers of pagan worship].

    Isaiah 41:24
    Hear this! You [idols] are less than nothing, And your work is worthless; The worshiper who chooses you [as a god] is repulsive.

    Isaiah 42:17
    Those who trust in carved idols will be turned back, And utterly put to shame, Who say to cast images, “You are our gods.”

    1 Chronicles 16:26
    For all the gods of the peoples are [lifeless] idols, But the Lord made the heavens.

    Isaiah 45:16
    They will be put to shame and also humiliated, all of them; They who make idols will go away together in humiliation.

    Psalm 135:18
    Those who make idols are like them [absolutely worthless—spiritually blind, deaf, and powerless]; So is everyone who trusts in and relies on them.

    Leviticus 19:4
    Do not turn to idols or make for yourselves molten gods (images cast in metal); I am the Lord your God.

    Psalm 97:7
    Let all those be [deeply] ashamed who serve carved images, Who boast in idols. Worship Him, all you gods!

    Isaiah 2:18
    And the idols will completely vanish (be abolished).

    Leviticus 26:30
    I will destroy your high places [devoted to idolatrous worship], and cut down your incense altars, and heap your dead bodies upon the [crushed] bodies of your idols, and My soul will detest you [with deep and unutterable loathing].

    Deuteronomy 32:21
    ‘They have made Me jealous with what is not God; They have provoked Me to anger with their idols. So I will make them jealous with those who are not a people; I will provoke them to anger with a foolish nation.

    Isaiah 31:7
    For in that day every man will reject and throw away his idols of silver and his idols of gold [in disgust], which your own hands have sinfully made for you.

    The Folly of Idolatry

    Isaiah 44:9-17
    9 All who make carved idols are nothing. Their precious objects are worthless [to them], and their own witnesses (worshipers) fail to see or know, so that they will be put to shame. 10 Who has made a god or cast an idol which is profitable for nothing? 11 In fact, all his companions will be put to shame, for the craftsmen themselves are mere men. Let them all assemble, let them stand up, let them be terrified, let them together be put to shame.
    12 The ironsmith shapes iron and uses a chisel and works it over the coals. He forms the [idol’s] core with hammers and works it with his strong arm. He also becomes hungry and his strength fails; he drinks no water and grows tired. 13 The carpenter stretches out a measuring line, he marks out the shape [of the idol] with red chalk; he works it with planes and outlines it with the compass; and he makes it like the form of a man, like the beauty of man, that it may sit in a house. 14 He cuts cedars for himself, and takes a cypress or an oak and lets it grow strong for himself among the trees of the forest. He plants a fir, and the rain nourishes it.15 Then it becomes fuel for a man to burn, so he takes one of them and warms himself; he also kindles a fire to bake bread. He also makes a god [from the same wood] and worships it. He makes it into a carved idol [with his own hands] and falls down and worships it! 16 He burns half of the wood in the fire; over this half he [cooks and] eats meat, he roasts meat and is satisfied. Also he warms himself and says, “Aha! I am warm, I have seen the fire.” 17 But from what is left of the wood he makes a god, his carved idol. He falls down before it, he worships it and prays to it and says, “Save me, for you are my god.”

    HERE IS A REPENTANCE PRAYER FOR YOU AND FELLOW FRIENDS.

    THOSE WHO WANT TO REPENT OF PAGANISM, OF IDOLATRY, OF WORSHIPPING ASHERIM AND PRACTISING SOCERY AND WITCHCRAFT:

    Say:
    Dear JESUS, the KING of ALL creation. The GREAT DARLING OF HEAVEN , our EVERLASTING FATHER, MY REDEEMER. PRECIOUS LORD JESUS, I have come to realise you today, to realise your full authority over me. To realise your complete authority over my eternity, and I surender today into an eternity of hope. I surrender into your most able hands all my life and I receive you into my heart as my Lord and Saviour. Today, I repent of all sin, all iniquity, evil and wickedness that may have been associated with me, consiously or subconciously.
    TODAY I REPENT OF THE SIN OF IDOLATRY, THE SIN OF WORSHIPPING ASHERIM, A FASLE goddess
    I REPENT OF FORESAKING ( Deserting, Abandoning) MY FIRST LOVE, OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR KING CHRIST JESUS
    I REPENT OF HEEDING THE TEACHING OF BALAAM (DIvination)
    I REPENT OF EATING FOOD SACRIFICIED TO IDOLS
    I REPENT OF COMMITING SEXUAL IMMORALITY
    I REPENT OF HEEDING THE TEACHING OF NICOLAITANS (Corrupted Gospel Teachers)
    I REPENT OF TOLERATING JEZEBEL, HER PROPHETS AND HER TEACHINGS
    I REPENT OF UNFINISHED DEEDS IN THE SIGHT OF THE LORD
    I REPENT OF SPIRITUAL SLEEPINESS AND SLUMBER
    I REPENT OF LUKEWARMNESS
    I REPENT OF THE LOVE OF MONEY AND THE PROSPERITY GOSPEL
    Precious LORD JESUS, establish your word in my heart and fill me with the Holy spirit and write my name in the LAMBS BOOK OF LIFE. Precious Lord Jesus, I can sense that time is over, please remember me when you return for the church. I vow to resolve, never ever to deliberately return to sin, so help me Holy spirit to accomplish the benchmark of God in my life. Today I cross over and I am born again. AMEN.
    (If you are not baptized, make haste to do so. May The LORD lead the way to your Holy Baptism. Make sure that day finds you when you have SEPARATED AND DISCONNECTED FROM THE IMMORALITIES AND ORGIES OF THIS WORLD AND FULFILLED ALL RIGHTEOUSNESS. The Messiah is coming Soon AND HE IS COMING FOR A HOLY AND MATURE BRIDE THAT IS WEARING FINE LINEN, BRIGHT AND CLEAN as per REVELATION 19: 6-9.

    IF YOU HAVE REPENTED IN THE ABOVE PRAYER, LET ME PRAY FOR YOU:
    “LORD Bless those who truly Repent and Turn Away from Sin this dark and late hour. LORD keep them and give them NEW LIFE, A NEW REPENTANT HEART, LATTER ANOINTING AND NEW WINE FOR THIS HOUR. LORD JESUS, Seperate them from wickedness and immorality and Help them to PREPARE IN RIGHTEOUSNESS and HOLINESS FOR THE COMING OF OUR MESSIAH, WHO IS COMING FOR A WISE BRIDE. Mighty JESUS, The Prince of Peace, sanctify them through and through and may their whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our LORD JESUS CHRIST. AMEN.”

    Shalom.
    Humble servant of KING Christ JESUS

    The Messiah is coming
    Hebrews 12:14
    The Messiah is coming
    Hebrews 12:14
    REPENT AND LIVE!

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